I have always been a very sexual being, back to the first things I can remember. The sexual energy I felt when I was younger never went away. It only got stronger. I didn't lose my virginity until my mid teen years, but I feel as though I had a pornography and masturbation addiction that has yet to have gone away. I express myself sexually any chance I get because it is something that has always felt good and comfortable. After losing my virginity, I would talk to my friends about sex and we would discuss things we've done and things we've wanted to do. None of my friends really talked about things that I really enjoyed or fantasized about. they would talk about spanking and sometimes choking, but they never talked about bruises, biting, bleeding, slapping in the face, or being made cry and feel degraded. At that point I knew I liked things that weren't considered ordinary. I like to be harmed, spit on and degraded. I never gossiped to my friends about these things because I was afraid they'd think I had issues or something, so none of them know it, but I learned about these kinks at a young age. I explored submission at different intensities. I have more stories, but I'm not here to submit. I want to explore more into dominatrix and I want to know what it feels like to hold that power over someone.